Rush hours

Second week of my work experience, I guess I am more used to



the 9-5 life. My company's bit far from where I live now, so I



need to travel on the tube for like 20 minutes(and this does



not include waiting/walking time).







And I can tell you it's no fun or cool working in this city.



Well, London may be a great place to spend your fortunes,



meeting great people, doing the most incredible and



the craziest things. However, squeezing yourself



with tons of strangers in this tiny wee space is like living in hell.











After all, nothing is perfect.









Gladly, I think I’ve found a way to deal with this anxiety.



I started bring a book with me and of course my lovely iPod.



Instead of walking to the nearest tube station, I would walk one



stop backwardly in order to avoid the crowds.







The line I am taking is just the same line of some most important



and busiest stops in London. These tube stations often pack up



with men with suits and women in heels and smart looks. But they



are cold and lifeless. No one bother to give you a decent smile.



To me, they are numb and tired.









If a work leaves nothing but a dead soul, will money do any justice?



I really doubt it.









Anyway, I will keep my iPod tuning. You may say I am being naive,



but I want to defense myself. I know everyone works hard,



but I just think while we are trying to make a living, we have to



know what we are living for.





So am I being naive or you are being blind?

















每天最痛苦的時候約莫擠在地鐵裡，那是一種未曾有過的焦慮與

無望。幸福的我從來沒有在求學的任何階段需要通車上學。即便

下雨天，也都有父親、母親的溫馨接送。大一點自己開車，老實

說根本不懂什麼是通勤的心情。即便現在在上課，也因為學校離

住的地方非常近，懶惰時搭個公車，勤勞點就走去學校。一點也

不費力。







那幾次在地鐵裡跟著所謂的倫敦上班族一起擠著上車廂真是讓我

驚嚇不已。誰說英國都是紳士淑女，大家擠起車來，也是猛的哩！

即便長得一副model樣或是穿著質感超好的西裝，列車一進站大

家幾乎同時倒抽一口氣的準備往前衝阿擠的。夾在之中的我還好

幾次擠不上去，硬是多等三班車才勉強卡位。







我想起以前高中時在福利社買東西從來沒有如願在短短的下課

十分鐘的時間內買到想喝的果汁。不是站在外面看到人山人海

的人潮就打退堂鼓，再不然就是傻傻的站在那邊等著猛擠的人

先買完。（不過很多時候，等別人買完也都上課了！）







我不禁想著，再這個地方工作是為了什麼？的確會有漂亮精彩

的履歷，看起來也會賺的比較多，不過這可也是個生活費超級

高、房租貴到吐血的地方阿。跟著幾位同事聊，每個人都住在

家裡，無法負擔自己的房子只能跟著父母一起同住。即便想要

有自己的空間也礙於現實的狀況而淪為個甜蜜的夢想。









倫敦是個豐富、多元的城市，但她不見得完美。







在這近乎半小時的車程，我聽著iPod裡凱先生幫我download

的音樂，讀著<>。我懂得人需要努力工作，

但在謀的生存之時，我們得不斷提醒自己為了什麼而活。